shit list

no one deserves this

sometimes i could hate you so much.
do you think i could tear 
chunks out of your flesh 
and spit your blood
back into your face? 

would that make you happy? would it? 
or would that
make you sick as a dog 
and scared black and white? 
throwing up till your
stomach bleeds bile. 

how was that?

come on. you don't fucking take me seriously. 

you don't take me at all.

or am i being a little harsh? 
what can you say in your defence? 
are you going to take this bullshit? 
or are you going to call it abuse?

or am i going to slam you against the wall 
and suck you dry? 
goddamn it.

GODDAMN IT.

	what am i doing?


June 6, 1996
© Lela Kaunitz